This semester’s Senior Choreographic Projects class really set the standard. Part of me is a tad bit nervous for next semester-I also hope to do well. We certainly have a growing arsenal of dancers and I hope that my work is just as sophisticated and just as up to par by next April. I really forward to brainstorming over the winter break.
The more time passes, the more hungry I feel to do things. I’m nervous about competition but I could really grow as a dancer and performer by continuing to show up to auditions. I want to spend more time working with remarkable and inspiring choreographers and I really want the experience of performing work on tour. It doesn’t have to be in 50 cities, but at least performing a piece in 3-5 different cities would be an incredible experience. I noticed this weekend how the level of excellence in a piece can really skyrocket after performing it for people in costume with lighting.
Performance adrenaline has a way of pushing physical and emotional boundaries-somehow it becomes effortless to expose more of ourselves and this flood of fervency and strength of feeling that the rehearsal environment doesn’t typically foster comes rushing in. The cool kids call it “living.”
What would it be like to use performance level as a starting point for a continued work in progress? Now I know I can’t approach future performance roles without making myself go to that place so that I can keep pushing those boundaries of excellence. It definitely takes a unique set of skills to intuitively feel and simultaneously project (in most cases without words) in an honest, vulnerable, yet commanding way. It’s a thrilling realm to experience. Somehow the task seems contradictory, yet a successful performance is the most pleasing and exquisite thing that will ever grace the entire sensory facility. Dance is powerful.